I am sitting at my computer today, surrounded by the hustle and bustle of people as they do their shopping, stop for a bite to eat or grab a quick coffee. I am being totally present with where I am, watching the scene unfold around me. This morning, however, my attitude to my life was completely different.
This morning, I woke up and felt like a total mess. I looked at where I am in my life right now, angry about everything and feeling frustrated that my life hasn’t turned out the way I was hoping it would. I was being a victim and seeing everything in my life as the biggest nightmare. There was no gratitude for today when I woke up. In fact, I just felt like giving up. Do you ever feel like this, when life just isn’t going the way you think it’s supposed to? Well, now you know what I was feeling.
Not to be one who allows myself to stay in that space for too long, I grabbed my computer and a bottle of water and walked up to the shops to do some work. I wasn’t entirely sure where to begin to start breaking through my crazy perceptions. The walk, mixed in with some uplifting music, definitely started the shift. I knew that I wasn’t fully accepting my fate, after everything that I’ve gone through over the last 10 months.
After I arrived and sat down, it started to become clearer to me. Life doesn’t always work out the way you thought it would and that’s actually ok. I began to see where everything that I want, I actually have in my life in other forms. Forms that are actually serving my highest good right now but I’ve been wanting the old familiar forms that I’ve had in the past.
I haven’t completely broken through yet but I felt inspired to share this with you because this is something that happens to all of us. Life throws us something out of left field and everything changes. The path that you were walking on is not what you’re familiar with anymore. In fact, it can sometimes feel like you’re walking backwards instead of forwards. You question everything you’re doing and whether it’s right for you. You doubt yourself and all your decisions. What lies in front of you now is an abyss rather than a roughly painted path ahead.
It’s in these moments that we get stuck, lose perspective and also develop an overwhelming fear of growing. One of the hardest things I’ve had to do in my life is accept my fate – my reality as it stands. I know that this often plagues all of you too but let me ask you two questions – how would it be a disservice to your life to reject your reality as it is right now? Would you be living in your memory or in a projected idea of the future instead? Every moment we are given in this life is precious and there is as much a blessing in those moments as there is a curse. Nothing in this life is ever one-sided. When there is loss, there is always gain. When there is a down, there is always an up. It is our responsibility to ourselves to seek out the other side, balance our minds, gain some perspective and be grateful for where we are and what we have.